I have dragged my feet coming here....I feel like someone is pulling me by the hand and forcing me to come here...I AM SADDENED...because I do not like to see anything die...I have already seen too much death in my life.
When I use to head here for safety...for companionship....for understanding...for help in times of trouble and for a pat on the back when I did good....I knew I would be in my safe place...A place away from the pain of the world...See, this is/was my life.
I have met so many many beautiful souls here....far too many loved ones to even think about listing...
Some though, are not even here among the living anymore.
I found true hero's here...like Kim and Lahoma....who went through breast cancer and kept their journals to the very end of their life...never complaining or asking 'why me'...Matter of fact; I remember that Kim once wrote me that she always thanked God that it was her...and not one of her loved ones...
And then there is Pennie.....who still lives...because she didn't let a fight with Polio, nor even a brutal brain aneurysm stop her love and wit when dealing with Bosox.
There is 90 plus year old "DAD" of DAD'S TOMATO JOURNAL...One of the oldest journalers in the world...whose very entry names are the numbers of all the entries from the very first time he wrote. I wonder if he has heard about this death of our community??? God Bless his heart...I hope to God he doesn't lose his entries...and I truly hope that I will see him again.
And then there are the angels like Sam and others who came to my rescue... when I was down and out for the count...like a knight in shining Armour...
I have been in bed since last week...except for the trip to the doctor last Tuesday and then the one late Friday night to the ER...I have been on more medication than I have ever before had to take...Right now they seem to think it is kidney stones and a severe kidney infection...among other things.....I have not been to work since week before last and will not be there this week either......and yes...I knew this could happen when I let my health insurance go.
Times are rough here in my home right now...very bad...emotionally and physically...Then today I hear that AOL will kill off our entire community of J-Land...we all have to move to blogger ...I already went and started one...but I will not lie and say I like it...and in the back of my mind I wonder...how long before it goes too?
I started this journal on August 28, 2004....over 4 years ago... Nearly two years of my life before Danny died on Jan 29, 2006 is in here ....I feel like I am dangling at the end of the preverbal rope...
Please keep me in your prayers.
I thank God I had you all here by my side during these 4 years...I thank God for providing this portal for each of us to meet the other and come to know and love one another.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
6 comments:
Keep your chin up Carlene. Sometimes that's real hard to do, isn't it? I hope you feel better very soon. I'd sure like to follow along to your new journal if I may. Hugs... Donna in Oklahoma
Hi Carlene,
Magic Smoke is keeping the information going, and our journals will be migrated over to Blogger/Blogspot. The latest I've seen today is that our About Me things & sidebars will go over with it. Dad's Tomato Garden has already set up his Blogger/Blogspot journal, and is posting the link to it daily.
What's your link to your new journal at Blogger? I'm going around J-land and saving all I can find so I can keep in touch.
By the way, Guido (pharmolo) in the U.K. is trying to save the journals of those who have passed on. Hopefully, AOL will let him do it. I think they might, they seem to get real concerned for some reason when he's upset about something.
Dirk
http://journals.aol.com/tsalagiman1/the-first-amendment-not-politi/
Dear so sorry you are going thru so much with possibly the kidneystone/infection and and feeling so badly, know you are in my thoughts. The journals have been such a great release and friendship builder for so many who needed to write and gets their feelings out. Such a shame that AOL is once again not thinking or caring about it's members. Take care, don't let the aol thing get to you, you need to put yourself first and get feeling better. Will look forward to your blog site. Know I care and you're in my prayers always. Arlene (AJ)
Carlene, if I can help you in any way (even though the entire worldwide web knows I am a technoramous) just say the word and I will do what I can to make the transition easier for you.
Feel better and know that you and your family are in my prayers. You can find me ....
http://flamingofeathers-kathy.blogspot.com/
HI CARLENE,
SORRY ABOUT YOUR AFFLICTIONS. I PRAY YOU WILL HAVE HEALING SOON.
I HAVE SIGNED UP AND JOINED THE 'BLOGPOST AND HAVE MADE A COUPLE OF ENTRIES UNDER 'SAYIT'. NAME BALDY.
WHAT SHOULD I DO TO HAVE PEOPLE FIND IT.
ON 'MY FAVORITE PLACES' , THE PLACE WHERE YOURS IS 'HORSE SHOE BEND',
MINE IS ' BLOGGER:SAYIT-CREATE POST ' (THIS ON THE AOL)
YOU MIGHT TYPE THAT IN AND ACCESS MY ENTRY.
IT SEEMS LIKE GREEK TO ME.
MY OWN ENTRY FORM COMES UP WHEN I TYPE MINE.
SAM .
Awwww Carlene I am so happy you have managed to salvage your old journal.So sorry to read though you are feeling so ill.I agree with every word you have written here.J/Land was a lifeline for many.Me being one of them especially.Only just short of three yrs for me,but as you have said a wonderful caring community.I asked for mine to be transferred last night thru th elink magic smoke gave us and did everything it said.Then low and behold aol refused to recognise my password on the final stage of it all.So they wouldn't do it unless i rang them(which is so so costly now)I went to live help and they said they couldn't do it either.Grrrr.So seems I will lose mine as I am certainly not ringing.We pay for this service in our subscription in my opinion without added extra's.Well love I hope your pain soon subsides.prayers being said for you and all.Lets hope all our friends can soon work out all these technical problems they are having and get back together as a family.The block label is still on mine Grrrrr but folks can comment if they click the proceed button.Take care God Bless Kath xxx
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